Here is a brief list of everything I’ve done instead of write since June 10, if one assumes that writing time is generally Monday – Friday after 8:30pm, when my daughter goes to bed or anytime on Saturdays and Sundays.
- Obsess about my job and my shortcomings at my job. Panic, worry, sweat, generally.
- Scroll mindlessly through Facebook and Instagram, though Instagram actually brings me some degree of joy (hello, minimalist interiors and Corgis!) and Facebook is downright toxic
- Prepare for our show at Gotham Comedy Club on June 27, including open mics (and travel to/from, honing the set, tweaking the spreadsheet)
- Wash my daughter’s bottles, wipe down her highchair, general let’s-get-ready-for-the-next-day prep
- Watch television
- Do laundry (mind you, I could’ve been writing while doing laundry).
- Drink wine (again, I could’ve been writing)
In addition to writing, here are some other things I haven’t been doing:
- Drinking enough water
- Calling my friends/family
- Working out
- Maintaining confidence in myself and my abilities, generally
- Figuring out if there’s a way to do an interfaith baptism/naming ceremony for my daughter
- Eating fewer processed foods and consuming a healthier diet
- Scheduling/planning my daughter’s 1st birthday party
If I’m going to call out my lackings, I need to celebrate my victories, too:
- Did well at a show in front of friends, family and a LOT of coworkers, including my entire team (yes, both of my bosses). Made enough dough to pay everyone involved, including myself.
- In terms of self-care, finally sought out two pairs of new jeans that fit my mom body well. (Yes, jeans that one feels good in = big victory. Huge.)
- Took a bunch of stuff to Salvation Army. Yay purging!
- Took a personal day during which I handled #2 and #3. It’s worth noting I also took a 45-minute walk that day and longed for more personal days.
- Joined a few fun Facebook groups where I met likeminded folks and feel a bit less isolated. (Yes, Facebook can be toxic in some respects and healthy in others).
- Received some really difficult feedback at work and have taken action to resolve and move forward in a healthy way.
- On nights when I’m alone with my daughter (Tuesdays and Thursdays when my hubs takes a class), I keep my phone out of reach, unless I’m taking a picture of Peanut.